"My mother groaned, my father wept, into the dangerous world I leapt..."

"How singular is the thing called pleasure and how curiously related to pain, which might be thought to be the opposite of it... yet he who pursues either is generally compelled to take the other; their bodies are two but they are joined by the same head." Socrates
I have been strangely attuned to the cycle of life and death lately; something is always dying and something is always being birthed to life. Blink... that is the span of your life in light of eternity. Also the cycle of pain and pleasure are quite curious to me as I learn to be in the world but not of it. "Imagine a set of people all living in the same building. Half of them think it is a hotel, the other half think it is a prison. Those who think it a hotel might regard it as quite intolerable, and those who thought it was a prison might decide that it was really surprisingly comfortable. So that what seems the ugly doctrine is one that comforts and strengthens you in the end. The people who try to hold an optimistic view of this world would become pessimists: the people who hold a pretty stern view of it become optimistic." C.S. Lewis Oh that my view of this world might be changed. If only for a moment I could see the hand that holds time, and how quickly the chord could be drawn on the curtain. For one moment I could risk stepping outside the comfort of my formulas and text books to experience something bigger then myself that transcends my self imposed box of probability.
The worst thing is that I can do nothing about this but I must only wait and receive. You wouldn't think it would be hard to just rest and take it in, but my mind is busy and my hands fidget and soon I am off again working on a formula that I know will never be quite right. How we deceive ourselves. " Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him." James 1:2-5