Lonely?

"As soon as we are conscious we discover loneliness" C.S. Lewis. What he failed to mention is the divide seems to grow deeper as you grow older. As I write this I wonder what will people think if they read this...helpless, needy, desperate, and that is fine but it is deeper then that. My loneliness comes not from a lack of people but a lack of understanding of many things. I have tried my whole life to fit somewhere and in result I am quite chameleonic. So as I make plans to pick up my life yet again and say good bye to the friends I have made and the roots I have tried to plant, I wonder if I ever have known home at all. Now this could be quite depressive or I could see it as my God's gracious reminder that I was not designed for here. No doubt that is not very comforting in the midst of it all but when I stop and take a second to breathe and allow myself to dream then and only then am I relieved that the best is yet to come.